Well today is just being one of those days... *Sigh* I know I don't really have anything to be sad about but it still hurts all the same... ... I feel like a whiny little brat who just isnt getting her way... ... But I can't help it... I am too damn stubborn and I won't give up like everyone else has... I'm not like that... ... At least I hope I'm not... Sometimes I'm just not sure how much more my mind can take before it snaps... I don't WANT to give up but it is what everyone else has been telling me to do... Well... Not EVERYONE, the person in question doesn't want me to... ... I think... ... I hope not... *Sigh* I really do hate this crap... Everyone says, "Oh Alisha, Ur such a strong person!" ... Bullshit... ... I'm just like everyone else just a little more rebellious and stubborn... ... I really do need to fix that actually... It's not doing very much good for my current situation... ... *Sigh* I dunno... I want to listen to what my heart is telling me, but my heart has betrayed me b4... The REALLY bad thing is, my MIND wants to think the same way too... I just want things to go back to the way they were... When things were simple and easy... I want to go back to when I could sit @ lunch and duel my guy friends and laugh at their stupid jokes... ... I want to talk on the phone to Chris again about movies, video games, wrestling, or just any other random thing that pops into our head... ... But I just had to be stupid, and I still am... ... I wish I could fix everything... ... Later, ~*Alisha*~ | 
